I Hate this!

Just wanted to share how I feel somedays.  Do you ever feel this way?  I think its normal, but I still love knowing I'm not alone.

I hate this and I know my husband really hates it. I hate the not knowing, the "maybe"s, the empty promises, the hopes that don't seem to come true, the wondering when it will all end.  I told my friend, that I am emotionally spent and that means I cry at the drop of a hat or scream at the turn of a corner. I have no patience and I feel like I could bawl at any minute. I hate feeling so out of control, so I work on it, and just when I think I've got it figured out, a headache kicks in, we get another rejection and the kids make a big mess ... and well ... I don't have it under control anymore. I really appreciate all the prayers, because I could only imagine how I'd feel without them.

On the upside, I have amazing friends that I am SO grateful for and I'm thankful to know that others out there understand!  I truly love my friends and family for their prayers, support and the fun things we do that help distract me a bit. I know I need to handle things a little better - compartmentalize a bit so that I can still enjoy the little moments. I'm working on it!

Prayers go out for all of you who are feeling the same way!