I learned that I NEED others. I talked to my friends and family. They knew what was going on in my life. My friends, that I went out to lunch with weekly, changed their lives for me and we ate in with home packed lunches (or they picked up lunch for themselves and brought it to my house to eat with me). Mostly people are just good. No one tried to solve my problem for me, they were just there as great friends. All except my sister.
I had tried to talk to my sister multiple times about our situation, and never got a word in. So, I emailed her. That was in September. At Thanksgiving her husband asked me how things were going with the business and that was the first I had heard anything from them about our situation. I was torn up inside for weeks after the no response.
I went to the temple parking lot one day and bawled my eyes out. I didn't think I should go in at that time, I had such negative feelings towards her. Anyway, I sat and prayed, and cried and prayed and cried. Finally I found peace in knowing that I can't change her. That my Father was pleased with me and I just had to keep on going on the way I want to live. I couldn't shun her for her inconsiderateness. I just had to keep treating her the way I wanted to be treated. It still took me a week after that to call her, but I did call her. Once a week for months. Things are finally better. On the flip side, my brother, that I {previously} rarely talked to, called every 2 weeks to make sure we were doing OK. ... Little tender mercies.
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